Directive

I have this vague idea of what I want in life. My aspirations are high, but I can't find a suitable vehicle to get me to them. I find enjoyment in a variety of activities none of which have proven career worthy or apt for supporting a wife and children. The course I know take is just not what I want, and honestly I don't even know if it will bring me success and peace in the end. It might just be what I have settled on for lack of a better option. I am unsatisfied, but the things of this world offer no real relief or sense of accomplishment. Why are all of my fondest dreams those which are apparently impossible? My goals are those that I do not know if I can attain, and if I am meant to, I haven't the slightest on how to go about doing so. I need God to do something astoundingly lucid! I need Him to just tell me in the most clear and distinct fashion what His plans for my life are. And then, if His direction is contrary to my desires I need the strength to stay the course...I hate milling about in uncertainty. I thrive when given a clear-cut unambiguous directive.