2012

I'm sitting in a room that doesn't feel like my own And working on a post with a melancholy tone Having come through the year that was more hell than heaven I gladly say farewell to the fading 2011 I have fought with both my faith and sense of direction And tried so very hard to show Christlike affection I've grown in some ways, and my vices tried to shelve Now I hope for so much more come 2012 I am clueless as to why things have been such a fight I have fought with self and demons through many a night I pray that God sees fit to set me down in green Cuz the desert of this year has been far too mean Maybe the past trials have been for my refinement But I so badly desire some easier assignments Whatever comes my way in this year that is dawning I will need His strength for my resolve is yawning. The key to living every year with peace and joy intact I believe is to depend on God for everything I lack. If I can find the rest that I know God's gladly giving Through this and every year to come, I'll have joy in simply living.

Reaching for the Son

It's been a rough year. I have been stressed and ablaze with the angers and frustrations of a life unyielding to my will. It's really hard for me to remain joyful and content when I feel that my best laid plans always fall short, and my most heartfelt wishes won't be realized soon enough. I am an eager creature. What I want, I want greatly. I have had to exercise patience and a great deal of restraint and in doing so, a bit of my jovial inner child has died. I have traded sunshine for fire, and optimism for jaded determination. I don't want to become calloused and bitter even though life has been a fight as of late. I wish to remain me through adversity. With this purpose in mind, I will try to relinquish some of the fire for sunshine once more. I would like to shine a bit more in the midst of my storm. Maybe it will make life a bit brighter and the time pass just a bit quicker on the way to where God's taking me.