Bleed earth to my unyielding grasp

Digging in. Enough ground has been lost...progress will come. I can not promise that I will proceed with grace but, I won't loose anymore to this hell I'm in. As the saying goes "death before dishonor" and I can truly see how the former could be preferred. God does not abandon those striving to serve and escape the vacuum of iniquity that is this life so I am entrusting my soul and happiness to Him. If He does not bring me through than I will die here, for my spirit can't survive the loss of this, its truest dream.